It was 2008. We had connected as you do, in that random way of the internet. It was a link at the bottom of his Myspace page. It simply said "The Truth". I followed it, and like Neo drawn down the rabbit hole, my world was changed forever.
When we're faced with a challenge to our worldview things that seem so unlikely as to be untrue are an impossibility for our minds to comprehend. I think back to the time when the accepted wisdom was that the world was flat- only later did we find out the truth was all along that the world is round. I myself went through a profound state of epiphanic shock adjusting to the new paradigm. And not all of the news is good. Please, if this is you, don't be afraid; it is a part of the process of evolution. We have to see that we have outgrown where we were in order to see where we need to grow to; discomfort is a factor of all growth periods. But so is excitement, adventure, courage, challenge and magic!
Or The Hero's Journey, as Joseph Campbell would say.
By pulling that thread, bit by bit my entire paradigm crumbled and a new, beautiful future emerged.
So how on earth did this happen? How have I gone from an all night party animal wildcat to a white-wearing non-drinking healer? The turn around is almost total!
Looking back, three things happened almost simultaneously. I had been battling that notorious unspecified physical ailment "IBS" since about 2005. This forced me to look at my diet and pare everything back in a major way. I became interested in organics, gluten free, vegetarianism, raw, growing my own... healthy healthy healthy... This was a real albatross for me and took many years to recover from.
Another thing that occurred round the same time was that I began to be sensitive to electromagnetic fields- the bad ones emitted by things like cell phones, and apple products in particular I found to be super bad. Meaning, I could and can physically feel the EMF's they emitted and to me they are strong. This went for computers, laptops, ipads, ipods and the little remote controls they have. I have always been sensitive to these fields but I just began to notice it a lot more; probably due to my job as a digital editor and dually the fact that they were [and are] around us with an increasing propensity. So these two factors lead me to the third factor which was that I quit cell phones and social media for five years. Five years! From 2009 on... Hi----ya!
Like many I was concerned with my movements being digitally tracked, and as Ed Snowden later proved, my worries were substantiated. But the EMF's were bothering me too and I could feel they were unhealthy. Then I became pregnant so I definitely wanted to steer away from that stuff and to focus on the gift that God has given us, his creation, our mother Gaia; the natural world.
And there was more. I got energy healing. I went on a retreat with David Wolfe and ate raw for a year. I read reams and reams of UFO Abductee & witness testimonies... what the heck was going on there? [I know now!] I was familiar with companies like Monsanto and their push to subvert the food supply with terminator seeds and the poisons in Roundup. And I knew drinking the toxic waste product fluoride in my water every day was not a good idea- heck, my dog wouldn't even drink it! But I was still puzzled by this malevolent push by those in power to keep us fat, sick, distracted and in debt. My investigation was still very much in its early stages.
So what does one do when one isn't online all the time? Besides birthing and breastfeeding my first child, the answer is, one begins to notice other things... And what I noticed was... NATURE. It's everywhere and yet we pay so little attention to it... really sit with it and just admire it. I was astounded by the beauty of trees! The glossiness of the green leaves! The way flowers stand out like beacons in a forest! The incredible work and variety of fungi! The smell of earth, the satisfaction of growing my own food, the life cycle of compost... My gosh, how could I have missed all this glory? I joined my local community garden with the other people who weren't on social media or cell phones - retirees- and I had a ball! I grew veggies in my back garden. I walked through my local park and sat by the pond every day... I listened to nature and she spoke to me.
Somehow at the same time I stumbled upon polygraph expert Cleve Backster's ground-breaking work on plant consciousness, Primary Perception. Even popular show Mythbusters showed surprise at their results which drew the same conclusions, though the data is 40 years old! At the same time, a friend lent me a book published by the Eco-Village Findhorn, on communicating with plant consciousness, or Devas. And then I read the NDE of avowed atheist Howard Storm. The combination of these three things meant I followed the rainbow to Northern Scotland to Findhorn, for a seminar called Into Christ Consciousness during Easter of 2012. I needed to wean my baby, and I wanted to learn more about plants and how to talk to them; bio-communication. And I was also curious about what the heck they meant by Christ Consciousness.
During those years from 2009 to 2012 I received many acupuncture and crystal bed treatments. Whether I realised it or not, I was working on my energy. I began to pray again, which I had not done for many years. I sincerely wanted to connect with this Source that impressed all people who have had a Near Death Experience, that impressed even the aliens. I prayed the Hail Mary, I sang the Our Father as I walked through nature and I prayed for all my deceased relatives, both remembered and not remembered. In December of 2012 I travelled to Byron Bay for the solstice to be at a beautiful event called Uplift. The beautiful ceremony with Australian Elder Uncle Bob and the Indigenous Grandmothers on the beach that day is something I will never forget.
By now I had began to realise that there was something more going on with humanity. That we each have some strange power that those in power feel threatened by. I was poring over scientific journals on consciousness, wondering about The Observer Effect and more in relation to Quantum Physics. My husband studied electrical engineering and my father in law was a chemical engineer so there were always copies of New Scientist and Scientific American laying around. I was fascinated by the reports coming out of the Heartmath Institute. I was particularly keen to learn as much as I could about healing, for it seemed to me that these people who reported these extra perceptions -which I still call super-powers- were and are healers. So I re-read The Bible, reading about Jesus in The New Testament over and over again. Each time, learning more about energy. I read and watched The Magus of Java. Nei Kung. Opening the Dragon Gate. And I realised that these talents, these abilities, this energy, is real.
In 2013 I travelled to the Casa de Dom Inacio de Loyola in Brasil to see the revered medium John of God, or as he prefers to be called, Medium Joao. I was astounded at the beautiful energy at the Casa, which I could feel with my body. It is clear it is a deeply holy place. I received healing there myself and I worked in the Casa as a volunteer, both in the soup kitchen and in the Current room. And I came back home a different person.
So now I know that praying works. I know this because I can feel the energy come out of my hands when I say prayers over others. Now I can perceive things with my third eye. Now I can see matrixes of light around plants and trees. And there is even more interesting phenomena which I won't go into here... but it is AMAZING. Once you raise your frequency, you will too, for they are a natural by-product of increased spirituality, which cannot be faked. This future is Beautiful.
We're all on our own journey. I'm just sharing my red pill experience in the hope it helps you with yours. Take the red pill, and I'll show you how deep the rabbit hole goes... right to daylight on the other side. <3